"From struggle comes strength. Even pain can be a wonderful teacher"
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
She is Back!
But I must say, she does make a record each time she has a new release. This song is GREEEAT! But i can imagine it being a mat's song.. haha.. anyway, sorry to hear dat u lost the custody of ur kids babe! But i wuldnt want my child to be wif someone who is rather unstable.. into drugs, too much booze and pills. I tink u need to start to be in control.. and set urself straight.. and win them back from Kevin. Dnt really like him either..
And tone up that body, Brit.. ur no longer as hot. Not that you were before. But, at least better than what i see in this clip..
Till then.. enjoy the video clip folks!
Potential Breakup song - By Aly & AJ
"It took too long for you to call back
And normally I would just forget that"
"Don't let me go!
Cause without me you know you're lost,
Wise up now or pay the cost
Soon you will know, oh!"
"We got along
We got along
We got along until you did that
Now all I want is just my stuff back
Do you get that?
Let me repeat that
I want my stuff back
You can send it in a box"
"I don't care
Just drop it off
I won't be home!
Cause without me you know you're lost
Minus you I'm better off
Soon you will know!"
Letting you go
I speak on behalf of these women. I do know how they feel and what they are going through. It is not that they are weak women. No. Some of them are highly educated, confident and beautiful. They could get just any man out there who is a million times better than this loser. But they choose to suffer with the one they love oh so dearly.
Such a sad story happens to me too. I met him way back in college. I fell in love with him the moment our eyes met. We dated. Had our first kiss. And it all ended within a blink of an eye. Reason being, he was taken. He was not single as what he claimed he was. But our path crossed again 5 years later. And that when it all started. A real ordeal that haunt me till now.
But i would not say i wasted my time. LIke what someone close to me once said, if you love him, you have to accept him for who he is. And that means living each day knowing he is out with someone else, lying to you and even cheating on you. You cannot blame him for not changing. People do not change overnight.
Well..I used to blame him all the time, for treating me like his alternative, or second best. But now, i no longer do. I blame myself. I chose this path. I chose to be with him no matter what. But i just could not take the package that comes with this. He is who he is. His has a strong interest for women. And due to this infatuation, he has to lie all the time. Hence, women and lying are apart of him. I acknowledge that, yet i blame him whenever he does it. I know of his current state. I am still the other woman. I accept her presence in his life. Even to give him time to clear that up. What i cannot endure is the fact that he chose not to acknowledge this problem of his. He still believes lying is the best escape route.
Baby, i have been patient. And i accept all your flaws. All i ask for is your honesty and acceptance. Do embrace this weakness you have. And together we can overcome it. None of us are perfect. We make mistakes and we learn from it. But, you must ask yourself if you DO want to change. You often make me feel as if i am just a passing phase. You are still searching for THE ONE. If that is the case, all my sacrifices are only a waste of time. I could have moved on. And knowing you, you never say "end". You will leave it hanging rather than to say it is over between us. That is just plain selfish and you know it. I said many a times, if you are still unsure of who you want to spend your life with, whom you love actually, and whom you are happy with, Just stay single and date as many as you want. No exclusivity. And then decide and commit to her. That is fair to both parties.
Stop running away from your problems. From your woes. Face them. End it if it is not going to work. Do not drag the matter. Maybe we both need some time apart. And consider wat is best. I have thought things through. There are things about me that i have to change and i appreciate our separation as a time to do just that. Things between us just cannot work. And i have to learn to accept that. We tried and tried but we failed all the time. It is time to move on. Both you and me.
But i will never regard what we had as a failure. It was the best memories i can have with you. Even though the time was short, i never NOT had the best times. My love for you was sincere and true. And i will always love you. I am still here for you whenever you need me. But as friends. All i wish is you change and realise before it is too late.
Do take care wherever you are. And i wish you all the best for your future career in the new job and also your love life.
These are the words i wish he could hear. Despite the long hrs i waited for him, cold n hungry, i did not regret knowing him. I did not regret to say he was my bf. He is the guy i love and will always be. No matter what.
Now that you have read my story, can you see what i mean? My friends and family have given up trying to talk me out of this. He took me for granted and i know it. He left me hanging., have fun with some chick, and came back when he had enough fun. And each time, i welcomed him back. And he knows i will. I am no longer as firm as i used to be. Sigh.. why god am i like this?? I prayed each day to just have the strength to walk away. But somehow i know i cannot. I am not string enough. All i want is him. And all i need is for him to tell me he needs me too. And mean it. He is the love of my life. And i secretly wish i am too. But, love sometimes do not go ur way. It may not be returned. And it is the case for me.
My life. My love story. A typical case of Love is blind. No one says love is all rosy and lovely. Love hurts. It is the worse pain you can get, cos there is never a cure for heartbreak. Only time. And with time, i hope my pain will go away too.
Monday, October 29, 2007
College gathering
Next house was Azkiya. Another eating session..this time only kuihs.. and photo browsing. Hers was amazingly nice.She used Zul Radi as her makeup artists and costume. They looked really good.. and the price was not THAT expensive.Rather reasonable.She was very pleased with how the photos turned out too. And the best part, she even had a phototaking session on her honeymoon!!! All captured for a lifetime memory!!
Hakim's house was next. This time, Liza and her bf joined in. So did Hakim. All of us headed on to Maya'a place for another round of endless drinking and cooking munching.So full by that time.Thank god i was wearing a loose kebaya.Can u imagine if i had one with full buttons in front.I think they would burst open..haha! But, one thing that remained the same for all the houses, the women would take turns to use the bathroom.We just could not control our bladder. :)
More phototaking at my place. And he joined us soon after. A lot of chit chatting and HIndi movie watching on tv. And by then it was already 5pm! Can u imagine.. for the past 5 hrs..we only managed to go to 5 houses..Hmm... Maya left after mine. And more did after Liza's. There were only 8 of us left at Cikgu Ibrahim's place. Cikgu served us nasi briyani and chicken curry..Superb!!! I had two servings.. i do not even wanna think of the weight gain! A funny thing happened. Our dear old joker, Khair, made me say the prayer. In front of everyone.. even cikgu! And i was caught off guard, that i could not even recall what the prayer was. Can u imagine how embarrassed i was??! My face was as red as the curtains in cikgu's house. Kurang ajar ko kaya!!
At the end of cikgu's place, Jun, Hakim n I went over to Cikgu kalida's. The rest had to leave. Siti had to send Alfian to the airport. And Khair had to meet his parents. Lorryn off to support her cousin for the pesta cerpen. The 3 of us had to go. We have promised Cikgu. And so wen went. She ordered pizza and made bubor hitam. I could not eat any further. Just had a slice. And almost felt like puking... enough food for me.
I rushed back. Erin and her fiance were on their way to my place. Last min kemas kemas sikit. And waited. They came like 10mins after i got home. Quick chat and phototaking and my day ended at exacty 1230am! It was super tiring... as tiring as writing this entry.. damn long la.. haha...
Anyway, to all my NYJCians -> Thank you for coming to the outing. Appreciate it. Miss u guys and gerls!!! Next yr we shall have babies joining us.. hehe.. siapkan duit raya ha..
Luf u guys!
Friday, October 26, 2007
Words that meant something
Bila cinta didusta by Screen (extracts of the original lyrics)
"Mengapa menyinta
Andainya tak setia
Tak usahlah bercinta
Jika hanya berpura
Bila hati dah jemu
Mula berpaling tadah
Tak pernah difikirkan
Orang yang ditinggalkan
Tersiksa sayu pilu
Andainya ditakdirkan
Cinta mu didustai
Pastinya kau mengerti
Siksanya perpisahan
Hanyalah ditemani sesalan"
And here is the video.. very low budget..super disgusting..but what the heck!
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Arsenal Vs Slavia Prague: From the sidelines
Match overview
Arsenal romped to a 7-0 victory over Slavia Prague at The Emirates Stadium last night to claim the maximum nine points from 3 matches to sit atop the Group H standings in the First Phase of the UEFA Champions League tournament 2006/2007.
The Gunners, in top both flight and form, extended their unbeaten record to 13 games in all competitions with this big win. It was definitely a wonderful, though belated, birthday present for manager Arsene Wenger who celebrated his birthday two days ago.
The man of the night was certainly Theo Walcott who was in superb form. Arsene Wenger paired Walcott with Adebayor as Arsenal’s assassin striker Yan Persie was sidelined due to a injury he picked up while on international duty. Walcott repaid the faith that Wenger had in him by netting two goals in a night that saw the Barclay’s Premiership leaders dominating the game.
The teenager’s pace certainly tested the visitor’s defence to their limits almost consistently as they frantically try to break down the Gunners’ attacks.
Arsenal took the lead from as early as the 5th minute. Good footwork by Hleb down the left created the opening and when Fabregas’ marker slipped, the ball was presented to Fabregas as it delightfully fell to his feet. The Spaniard curled the ball past Prague’s custodian Martin Vaniak into goal.
That proved to be just the beginning of the oncoming salvo and barrage of goals of the evening.
In the 24th minute, Hleb himself doubled Arsenal’s lead. Slavia failed to clear their lines after breaking down an Arsenal attack on the right and the ball reached Hleb. The Belarus midfielder fired an angled drive towards goal and it took a deflection off Slavia defender David Hubacek outstretched foot into goal, much to the dismay of Vaniak who looked poised and prepared for Hleb’s shot.
The Czechs once again proved how comical they can be especially when being two goals down (hahahaa). Slavia’s left-back decided to do a back-pass to Vaniak from near the touch line. Vaniak then horribly cleared the ball and gave Walcott possession. The young star cleverly rounded Vaniak and slotted home the ball from 18 yards out between two retreating defenders who could do nothing but to watch Arsenal’s lead extend to three goals.
The game paused for half-time with the Gunners leading by three goals to nil. And all who were watching knew that more goals were coming.
After 51 minutes, Hleb scored his second goal of the night when he weaved through Slavia’s defence on the left and let fly a low shot past Vaniak. Four minutes later, Arsenal were 5-0 up when Hleb brilliantly wrong-footed Slavia’s full-back with a sliderule pass to Walcott. The fast-paced teenager made no mistake to the pass and drilled home off the far post.
It was barely 3 minutes later that Arsenal added another to their haul of goals in this mauling of Slavia Prague. Arsenal counter-attacked after defending a Slavia corner and seamlessly advanced towards Slavia’s goal through Adebayor and Walcott. With the Czechs still catching up, Walcott unleashed the ball to Fabregas who fired home his second goal of the night.
Arsenal’s preferred keeper for the night, Alumnia, seemed to have very little to do as the Gunners defended well, controlled the middle of the park and took their scoring chances well. Matej Krajcik tried to put some honour into Slavia’s defeat but Alumnia ensured a clean sheet when he tipped away Krajcik’s shot.
Theo Walcott found himself with a superb scoring chance when he received the ball from a superbly-measured pass by Rosicky but Vaniak was there to deny the brilliant striker a hat-trick with a wonderful save from point-blank range.
Nicklas Bendtner who came in for Adebayor, tapped in the seventh goal on the stroke of full-time, adding salt to the already-gaping wound in Slavia’s pride.
It was an evening where Arsenal showed maturity in their game. Their slick passing and ability to stretch the opponent’s defenses showed that the 2006 Champions League finalists are a force that should not be written off so easily. Slavia Prague may be new to this competition, but the rule of the game is : Beat what’s in front of you. And that’s what Arsenal has been doing for the past 13 games, their best run of form since their the Invincible season in 2003-2004 when the Gunners went on a 49-game unbeaten streak.
Tougher opponents will come and definitely, with their present form of play, Arsenal will be up to the task of proving their point that they are definitely worthy of lifting the Champions League trophy. GO GUNNERS!!!
Reported by No. 11 , Robin Yan Persie
Cam whoring
Our Funny faces...
(For the above slide) -> These pics were taken while we strolled from Causeway point to Civic Centre.. Looked at our bored faces on one of the pics. I was pissed off with the poor connection at MacD. Kept DC-ing.. sigh! Problem with wireless!
(For the slide below) -> Us looking cheerie and happy... after a hearty meal at Banquet and Swensons... My Celebrity Brownie with cookies and cream!!! Yummy!!
While we were surfing the net at MacD, we noticed a touchy couple who sat just opposite out table. She was in a school uniform. He was in plain clothes. From the look of it, they could be from some nearby secondary school in woodlands. If you were there, you could see that her skirt was really really short!! It was a no wonder that he could not keep his hands off her. The boy was a real pervert i must say. Fai caught him putting his gf's hands on his "area" the whole time! Gross.. I should have report them to the authorities! It's a public place for Gods sake!
And here..take a look at Fai's new phone!! Not bad too.. kinda nice. But, I still love my Sony! Hehe.. Look at her wallpaper.. Her face AGAIN! What else.. she is soo vain.
After a full day of serious photo taking.. we decided to retire and head home.. Till next time dik!! Luf ya! BTW, all pics are now uploaded in friendster.. Grab away! :)
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
It's our song
Rihanna & Ne Yo
"Hate that I love you"
Just some of the selected paragraphs from the original lyrics. An expression of how i feel about you.
"You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long, that’s wrong
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more
So I despise that I adore you
Sad and it's not fair how you take advantage of the fact
that I love you beyond the reason why
And it just aint right
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can’t stand how much I need you
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so..
The title says it all
"If i was your man" By Joe
Guys-> Stop cheating on your woman. You will just end up losing her like how he did on this video. Listen to the lyrics. Better still.. read the words below and internalize them. To some who love to karaoke..the lyrics are written below..so sing along.. nananana
Ooooo
Yeah yeah yeah
Ohwooe
Na na na na na
na na na na na na
oh
na na na na na
If I was your man, girl
Girl I'm so tired of things
I just wanna settle down
I swear to you I've changed
baby why you buggin out
I know that I put you through hell
you deserve to be with someone else
but I gotta be straight up
straight up
girl I just wanna kiss and make up
We done been through a lot of things
how do you throw that away
you were the heart of me
can't believe you'd let it break
tell me why you won't let em go
you can say what you want but I know
baby no more lies
I'ma keep it real this time
Help me understand
what I'm sayin and get through
why I can't be your man
when I'd give up the world for you
Girl I'll do the best I can
love you forever that's what I'd do
if I was your man
if I was your man
if I was your man
Got rid of everything that I know was hurting you
my heart, so many strings
gave that up for you too
don't want nothin' else in the way
I just wanna make sure that you stay
baby no more lies
I'ma do it right this time
Help me understand
what I'm sayin and get through
why I can't be your man
when I'd give up the world for you
[these lyrics are found on http://www.songlyrics.com]
Girl I'll do the best I can
love you forever that's what I'd do
if I was your man
if I was your man
if I was your man
Can't live without you anymore
baby I know that you're what I'm fightin' for
Baby say that you'll still be with me
in my arms is where you need to be
Can't live without you anymore
baby I know that you're what I'm fightin' for
Baby say that you'll still be with me
in my arms is where you need to be
Woe
na na na na na
na na na na na na
If I was your man
if I was your man
Help me understand
what I'm sayin and get through
why I can't be your man
when I'd give up the world for you
Girl I'll do the best I can
love you forever that's what I'd do
if I was your man
if I was your man
if I was your man
My 13 months overdue run!
I rushed home.. changed into my running gear. My brother had voluntered to run with me. He is the health fanatic one.. always doing pullups (on the metal pole outside my home. They are currently building a lift.. so had all this construction thingy going on out there. The timing cannot be even more perfect huh) and diamond pushups! OMG! Men and vanity!!
So we started our run at 7pm. Did a 20mins run... across the 400+ blocks -> Yishun Park -> The fitness area in the park. We worked out for like half hr. Did the usual pushups, steps, pullups, log lifting and situps. And continued another half km probably back home. In total, i think we covered like 3-3.5km!
Wow.. an achievement for me because i barely panted that much. I was no fish gasping for air!! A real big surprise indeed considering i have not been running since last ramadhan.. and till date, that would mean estimately 13 months!
Haha.. Been too long. I should start this regime again and get into shape.. I miss those times i had a flat tummy... sigh!!!
See syg, i can do smtg else besides eating. But... after the run, i had a huge bowl of maggie mee.. haha... there goes the effort. :(
Justin Timberlake-What goes around comes around (new remix)
I love R&B.. but i love Justin More.. haha...
Take note of some parts of the lyrics.. The female version. From me to you!
"Hey boy, is she everything you wanted in a woman
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you boy
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong
Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?
Now boy, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong
Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
[Comes Around interlude:]
Let me paint this picture for you, baby
You spend your nights alone
And she never comes home
And every time you call her
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That she's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes
You cheated boy
My heart bleeds boy
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Boy you got what you deserved
And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right
But boy I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see
See?
You should've listened to me, baby"
French Beatboxing
Ignore the French people speak.. but do enjoy the sounds that this beatboxer can make through his mouth..
Can you do it???!
The hassle
Our trip is finally confirmed!!!!
Just counting down to 21st of Dec! Can't wait!!!
P.S: Moral of the story is -> Just do it Yourself. Never depend on tour agencies. They only slow you down.
Tiff with the tour agency
But, all my hopes went down the drain when she spilled the news... The Twin towers is fully booked on those dates. And the only rooms available are the superior ones which will cost us an additional $100+++. And also, the airline demands an additional $80 bucks as peak surcharge! WTF!! That means our whole trip will cost us more than $600 bucks! That is plain absurd!!! I gave a piece of my mind to the agent for failing to inform me of the surcharge portion even when i kept asking her if there are other additional charges involved!
And so it seems like we have to go back to our original plan. Go budget on both flight and accomodation.. sourcing our own! Am not relying on these agencies anymore.. I shall marched to their office tmr and get my $400 refund! Hmmph...
This trip has to happen and will happen... No matter what! I need my shopping break! And SHa i tink you are hoping for one too :)
Monday, October 22, 2007
Crappy Sunday
Been having bad headaches the whole morning.. probably due to the lack of sleep and most likely the cause of... Anyway, we managed to reach Larkin by 10am that morning. Bought the ticket for Ajib and had breakfast at Macdonald -> The eventful venue for the scene that happened that morning. Ajib went to get hotcakes meal for Faz. He ordered the 3 hotcakes meal but instead they gave him the 2 hotcakes plus one sausage patty. Faz grumbled about it and asked ajib to change. So he obliged. The cashier gal gave him 2 hotcakes and removed the sausage. No third hotcakes was placed onto the plate. Faz grumbled again and ajib was too embarrassed to ask for a change the second time. And so, my two fav bros looked at me and said these exact words "Kak, go do your job and complain!"... what the heck was that suppose to mean???! Am i really a difficult customer???! Hmm.. oh WTH... i think i can be at times..
And so i went up to the counter, pointed to 3 of the Mac'D girls and gave them a piece of my mind in English.
Me: "EXCUSE ME! My brother ordered the 3 pcs hotcakes but u gave him 2 instead plus the sausage. He came and asked for a change, you lazy bums just removed the sausage and gave him back the 2 hotcakes!" Are you blind or dumb? Don't u know how to count? Where is the additional hotcake? DO you want me to repeat this in Malay?"
The girsl looked stunned and shaken. They nod their heads and added another hotcake to the plate. My bros laughed. And my mum scolded me for being rude to them. Well.. i know i was.. but that what happen when i am struck with a super bad headache and sleep deprivation! Sorry gals...
And so when ajib when over tot he counter to order chicken porridge for my mum (yes, malaysia MacD has it).. they gave us a complimentary hot tea to compensate for the mistake earlier and their hands shook when they gave him the change.. haha... I didnt know i can be that intimidating!
And so, my brother board the coach at 1030am. We were saddened by his departure and will miss him terribly... been the case all the time. What are we siblings to do... we are separated by distance, but our love knows no boudaries.
To you Ajib: Akak will always miss n love u. Awaits your next visit in Dec. And yes abg and akak will come to your graduation next yr.. Cant wait. Regads to all! Muaks!
Hari Raya in JB
After much naggings from him, we made our way asap. He picked us up at the rest house in Gelang Patah and brought us to his beautiful home! It was a really long and confusing way. We would definitely get lost if he was not around.
The neighbourhood is really cosy and welcoming. Taman Sutera is the name, and known to be occupied by mostly Singaporeans. His house is amazingly nice and well furnished. I love the interior look of the house as well as the garden. Aisha's room is simple and clean. I sat on the bed and was almost sucked into the mattress..little did i know that it was actually a waterbed. My first time lying on one.. hehe!
We took photos along the way and savoured the delicious food by Mdm Kamariah. She made nasi briyani and plenty of dishes! I had 2 servings.. felt fat after that... thank god my buttons did not burst open haha!!
After the heavy meal, we gorged on the cakes and cookies. Cik.. your M&M cookies are amazing! Can i have the recipe pls??
At the end of the day, after the heartfelt meals, we got ready for home. SAid our thanks, and gave my kiss goodbye to him (aww) and drove off. ---> This is the part i said, home sweet home.. oh that happened like 2 hrs later.. cos we got lost along the way! And imaging the dreadful noise i had to endure in the car!! From a particular someone... OMG!!!
But other than that little inconvenience, i had a lot of fun on that day. The food, the hosts and the photos all turned out great!
On behalf of everyone in my family, thank you sayang for the invite! And thank you to your mum and family for the great hospitality.
Enjoy the pics below...
Taken while we were on our way to the house in JB..
Caught in action
My favourite pic of all
Friday, October 19, 2007
"Cheat" by Marques Houston
I dont know how to say this....
Baby, I'm sorry but I cheated.
I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.Check it out.
[Chorus 1]
Babygirl I know I use to do some ill shit to you.
Coming home jumping in the showerta wash off the last chicks perfume.
Changing mah draws
Stuff 'em down to the bottom of the hampter.
Taking numberous trips to Atlanta, Miama, Tampa.
Girl I was doing mah thing.
Then I seen the pain in ya brown eyes.
Made me realize
That I was breaking you down
What goes around comes around
And girl when I lost it all, you never walked away
Baby you stood ya ground yeahhh
[Hook]
Girl I know I cheated on you before
I cant say I wont do it again
Stick by my side girl I know I can change
Sometimes I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me
Girl I know I cheated on you before
I cant say I wont do it a-gain
And what would I do-o without you yeah
[Chorus 2]
I know I had a good girl
Beautiful inside and out
It's like I cant get enough
What I have for you is love with them it's only lust
telling you Im up in the studio when I'm in the hotel freaking 'em
When I promised to take the weekend off
But yet instead you stayed
And I see ya friends looking at me crazy
they dont wanna see me with you
But I need you in my life, I dont wanna pay the price.
I know its time for me to stop now!girl
I threw in the towelYeah
Cause now I keep myself what I choose
So I'mma do what I can and ta tell you the truth.
Believe me baby cause the best is all I can do-o oooh.
[Hook]
Girl I know I cheated on you before
I cant say I wont do it again
Stick by my side girl I know I can change
Sometimes I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me
Girl I know I cheated on you before
I cant say I wont do it a-gain
And what would I do-o without you yeahI regret that......?
And now it's time to make right
Somehow I know I will for you
No more coming home late staggering, yawning, going to sleep snoring girl
I know that there is no one out there for me but you
I keep sliping (slipping) and slipping
I stopped for a minute (stopped)then I'm right back cheating on you-u (you you you)
To all the men out there: Stop your lies, stop the deceit. Just be honest and be appreciative of the woman you love. Be thankful while she is by your side. There is nothing more than wanting to see you change, to be true to one for once, and to just be yourself. Do realize your mistaks before it is too late.
"My Heart" by Acha Septriasa & Irwansyah
Didalam diam ku mengharapkan cinta sebegini. Cinta ya suci dan indah. Kebahagiaan yang selama ini kuidamkan. Untuk menyintai seseorang dan dicintai sepenuhnya. Jauhi daripada segala nafsu dan godaan, jauhi daripada tipu helah dan iri hati. Adakah cinta sesuci ini masih wujud? Itulah sesuatu pertanyaanku pada mu.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
My much awaited trip is finally confirmed!!!
Let me share with you the details of our trip...
Date: 21st Dec
Flight: Thai Airways
Departure: 3.25pm
Hotel: The Twin Towers
Date:25th Dec
Departure: 11am (Bangkok time)
And of course we will be ferried by the coach from the airport to the hotel and back to the airport! We will be princesses for the whole 5 days. OUr days will be filled with shopping, eating, sight seeing, and not to forget CLUBBING! Sha.. i shall be your tour guide for those days you are going to be stuck with me.. haha... lets start learning Thai! :)
Counting down for the day!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Can a leopard really change its spots?

Can a leopard ever change its spots? Can a tiger change its stripes? Can humans change his/her essential nature? A metaphoric expression that originated in an ancient Greek proverb. Such a simple statement that left me in a quandary.
I am sure everyone of us will go through this stage once in their lifetime. How do you learn to trust again, to love again without having doubts and suspicions overwhelm you? Overpower you? It is indeed tiring to go through the questions in your mind repeatedly. As one says, one bitten, twice shy. But what do you call someone who has been bitten one too many times? Foolish? Or plain naivety? Or love? I have no answer for that.
The crux of the issue is can one really change? Can one who cheats, lies and abuses really repents? Is there such a thing as remorse?
A close friend of mine undergoes the same dilemma. She lives in doubts all the time. She wonders if he is true to her every single day. If all those things he said through texts, verbal means or face to face interactions were ever sincere and honest. Is he acting innocent again? Did he really do those things he said? Well, i have to say he did put in effort in winning her back. And some of his actions were sweet and romantic. But is he really an alcoholic he now claims he is? All this while, that was not the case.
She just accepted it. All the excuses, all the reasons. Not wanting to be difficult nor start any unnecessary arguments, she acts dumb. All the time. The smiles, the laughter. Are those really genuine?
Deep inside, she always has that doubts on him. Always. And this may/may not be the cause of their relationship falling apart in the near future.
Only time will tell how this wil turn out. All i know is this shall be her last attempt to make their love story have a happy ending. If only he wakes up, if only he realizes the risk involve, if only he knows how much she cares, IF only he loves her that much to change his ways for the better.
Only time will tell.
Rude Rude Rude
I voluntered to call up some agencies. Surfed the net and managed to get the contact details of some renowned agencies. I dialled their numbers respectively. And I had the biggest shock to the kind of service they gave me!
A snipets to some of the responses i received from those known agencies were:
Agency A
Ring Ring ***
Staff: HELLO!!! (He was shouting at the top of his voice. Angry and utterly rude)
Me: Can i know your Free & easy package to Bangkok? (already irritated by his lack of manners)
Staff: Tsk tsk... no flight available. tsk tsk... aiyah! .... and the rest of the conversation was mostly him sighing... but no useful information was given. WTF
Agency B
Ring Ring**
Staff: Hello.. welcome to M*** travel agency... (nice sweet voice)
Me: ASked the same question
Staff: (Had a change of tone). Sigh!! WAIT! -> Put me on hold for like 5mins... And came back to the phone. Hmmm ya we haf flight. Wat hotel u want? Hmmph... ya haf. But no flight back.
Me: Hmm.. so that means what? I have to return back the next day?
Staff: Hmmm don't know. Maybe. Up to you
Me: Huh? Up to me? Then how the heck do you expect me to come back if there is no flight? You want me to swim back? Sigh....Can you guarantee that the room will still be available if i extend?
Staff: Hmmm... maybe. cannot confirm la.
Me: Huh? Hopeless. Whateverla. Thank you.
And with this last agency, i have to attempt some hanyu pinyin. Apologies for the misspellings and singlish.
Agency C
Ring Ring**
Staff: Wei!
Me: Huh? Oh hello
Staff: Can i heb u?
Me: Same request
Staff: Hmm.. yo la. Ten ten (meant "wait" in english)
Me: Can you speak English. I am not chinese.
Staff: Oh keyi keyi (meant "can" in english)
Me: So any package?
Staff: Heng qui (expensive) leh. U sure u want or not?
Me: Hmm.. how much?
Staff: $580 la. Sui sui..
Me: Hmm.. that is expensive. It's ok. Thanks anyway
So that marked my experience with 3 reputable agencies. Just take note of the tone they used and the fluency in the english medium. My god! And here i am so proud to call myself singaporean... the country known for its cleanlines, fines, good service and fluency in the English language. So not the case! Sheesh!
PS: Sha we shall book the room and air tickets on our own. Definitely much cheaper than those darn packages!
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
You are such AN ATTENTION SEEKER!!
Steven, this is no attempt to promote your childish, low grade blog. I just have to let my readers be aware of how "perasan, muka tak malu and buruk" you are. Do ask your malay frens what these words mean (if you have any friends that is). I am sure they are more than willing to translate for you. I shall highlight your "good points" in chronical order;
a. Advertising your services
You claimed that you offer travel, bodyguard and body training services. Even if i have millions of dollars to throw around, i will NEVER engage in your services. No offence but first of all, do you even travel extensively to guarantee your customers a good time. And do carry plastic bags along and offer them some, because they do not have to be on any roller coaster rides or on board a plane to experience nauseousness. They will puke the moment they set eyes on you! And what is with the bodyguard and body training services???! You do not even have the bod dude!! There is not even an inch of muscle on you. You have only a bulging beer belly.. that is soo gross and flabby looking! Do everyone a favour..Go train yourself first.. or better still... fork out the cash and pay someone with the skills, body and looks to teach you.
And psst... I think you should get yourself a mirror for your next birthday. The one you have at home must be tainted or broken. You do not seem to be able to see the sad reality in front of you!
b. You are a model???!
Never in this life nor any other life. You do not have any perfect bone structure on your face, nor the height nor the body. You are far beyond the model material. Count yourself lucky if you get to sweep the model fitting room! That is the closest you can get to being one. Just drop the idea. Live the dream?? More like kill the dream!
c. Mr Chai Shen Jiang
You attempted to sing that song.. i am sure it is really nice by the way. The title "sorry" is really suitable for you because:
- The original singer felt really sorry to have even sung the song and let it heard by someone like you, who croaked terribly at it! And could not even hold a note, nor have the proper facial expression to complement the tune!
- Everyone who heard you sing felt sorry for your family and frens to even know you or acknowledges your presence in this world. The world must have turned when you were born!
- I am sorry for the pooh bear that you were holding while you tarnished the song with your non melodious voice! STOP molesting the poor toy!!
And please for the sake of mankind, do refrain from entering any contest. If your aim is to gain fame and popularity, you will never achieve it. You will only be another William Hung or Sanjaya. You will never will be rich like them (as least they are paid to make a fool out of themselves, you gain nothing boy!).. so do stop your attention seeking ways!
d. Your talent in dancing
Zero to none! You suck big time at dancing. Rather than wasting your time jumping up and down like some lost cast from Planet of the Apes, i would suggest signing up for a proper dance class. I could recommend you some. I think those dudes i saw in some techno clubs danced much better than you did, even though i can never understand the kind of dance moves they were making. The Lemon Tree moves.. OMG!
Please do not peel anymore skin on Michael Jackson's face by doing the Billie Jean, or turned Christina's hair green by imitating her sexy moves. Dude! You ARE JUST NOT SEXY! You are one of those, born without any appeal on women. I think you should put your ad on finding the life partner someplace else. Seeing your blog, you are going to shoo more sane women away!
e. Your CV
A close friend just told me that she went to the same sec school as you. She almost flipped and fell off her chair. She was sooo embarrased to have you as her senior!
I noticed you hobbies include working out... again.. not showing dude! And please omit those talents you have on your list. Its a lie and you know it. And for all those awards you won, it is either the judges had some mishap and got blind or you were the best among the worse! And dude, please change the company name.. Eyebrowser Trading & Marketing???! .. you have a diploma in marketing.. you cannot have any other creative names for your company, man? Tsk tsk.. ANd it doesnt matter if you are straight and love women only, with that attitude, i would suggest staying single.
Last note: This is the most disgraceful blog i have ever came across in my entire life. I hope it stays known in singapore.. and for our local eyes only. PLEASE steven, do not bring shame to our good name! And dude! Learn to speak proper english. You are really bad at it!
Another bad day at Long John Silver
Tick tock tick tock! Still no food in sight. 15mins later my brother's food came. Tick tock tick tock! Mine still not served. HOw long does it take to add crusts! For goodness sake, your restaurant lived by fried food! You have millions of crusts lying around in the fryer somewhere... does it take almost half hr just to add the darn crumbs onto my plate! Sigh...
And yes, ladies and gentlemen, my fateful meal came like 30 mins after. This was after i witnessed the damn LJS waitress (the same one who served me) sent the same meal to all the other customers who came much much later than i did! And finally when she came, she said these exact words "Oh sorry m'dm. We ran out of crumbs. So this is the your meal.." she claimed it's the one she offered 30 mins ago. First of all you lied abt the meal being the one you served half hr ago! The one that stood right in front of me was still flaming hot i could barely take a bite! Didn't you even learn about science and heat wave!!! Secondly, you could not even speak proper English and yet you are the frontmen serving customers. What did you learn from LJS? Isnt there proper training??? Thirdly, this is a FAST FOOD joint. You are suppose to serve food fast! Not like 30mins later! I might as well eat as a foodcourt for gods sake! Fourthly, don't they teach you never to let a hungry customer wait for too long for her/his food. And you know how bitchy a female customer can be? We are born with such sharp tongue and pettyness for a reason! Fifth, what is with the attitude back at the counter? Don't they teach you lessons on good customer service. What's the point of having the golden bell in your restaurant if no customer is going to ring it.. cos none of your staff deserves to be recognised for good service!
This shall be my last attempt to even try eating at LJS. Unless the government suddenly bans all the fast food places, and somehow due to some miracle that happen, LJS is the only one allowed to open for business, you will never see me in that place again! NEVER!
The outing continues
The day just started for us.. we had to proceed to visit at least 7 houses today: Beginning with Mak ngah's house -> Abg Idris -> Abg Idrus -> Abg Isa -> Cik Sabariah -> Busu Zain -> Nenek Esa -> Chek Ah. The second house was a must as Kak Wati (my cousin's wife.. the chef for the spread you saw on the first day), will be cooking for us her specialty dishes. All of us, especially the kids (that means me, my cousin, Fazli and Najib.. yes we are still kids..you got a problem with that???!) made sure we came with our stomachs growling with hunger!
TO digress a little.. we took pictures on our way to Abg Idris's place.. snap snap here** snap snap there** Look photogenic everyone!
Ok.. back to the main story.. as you can imagine.. we ate like pigs. Kak Wati prepared for us mee hoon goreng, mee goreng, lontong goreng, lauk rawan and rice. Not to mention the delicious cakes like kek lapis, kek kukus and many more! We were soo stuffed by the time we left her place. Thank Kak Wati for the wonderful meal! It was realli yummy!.. And to all, presenting the famous chef herself and the quick snapshot of her heavenly creations..
A snap shot of her home, of course with our faces in it.. the house is super nice! They just moved.. not that far away from the old place. From Woodlands to Woodlands -> A change only in the block number -> and yes, their new cove is just across the road! I meant that literally.
With our heavy tummy.. we moved on to the next house. Rumah seterusnya untuk diserbu -> Abg Idrus! We had a fun Karaoke-ing session.. Just me and the cuzzies. I had to start the ball rolling. With my all time favourite song, Mungkin ny Anuar Zain. I was shaking as i sang the song. It was my first time, carrying a tune in front of my whole family! And ever supportive mum called me a "frog" cos i croaked! Haha.. mean mean!!! But everyone had fun. Even Najib entertained us with several Malay songs.
The highlight for the day was my two encounters with the cutest cats on earth. One was at Abg Isa's place. They just adopted a cat, a mix breed that costed $1200++.. This cat is so expensive that it even comes with original birth certificate, showing the family tree (apparently it has an Italian mum..hehe). And also a built in tracking microchip, just in case it gets lost. Its name is Jenggot (a slang for beard in Malay. It used to have one, till it got trimmed off). The cat is so tame and disciplined, that even i am daring enough to carry it in my arms! Sooo darn cute! Mummy can i have one....
And another avid fan of cats--- Chek Ah. She has 12 cats in total, living under the same roof as her HDB flat. The cutest of all is her orange cat, Lucas (named after the character in Starwars). This cat likes to sniff your toes. Very playful.. i screamed a lot as it seemed to like me most.Kept chasing me around in the house, like as if it can sense my fear!
Well.. that marked the end of our house visits! The day ended at 12am sharp! We were all so beat. Thank god i am on leave the next day. I will sleeping like a dead log tonite for sure!
Monday, October 15, 2007
Eid Mubarak, 13th October 2007
Early morning
The hardest part is...
The buffet starts at exactly 130pm... yummy
And the day ended wit lots and lots of Phototaking... snap snap!
Best surprise of all was the arrival of my dearest hubby, Nur Alfian Yusof.. He came knocking on my door at around 1030pm. It was the best hari raya gift i could ask for. His presence made me smile and ended the night wonderfully. We asked for forgiveness and prayed that this relationship would be given the blessing it deserves. I love you honey! Thank you for coming.
Special thank you to all who came! On behalf of my family, I would like to say my deepest appreciation to:
1. My family and relatives
2. AIA agents (colleagues of my dad)
3. Amar & partner, Hidayah
4. Kelly and Regina
5. Evelyn & hubby
6. Adrian & Terence
7. My hubby!
P.S: If you notice, i did not mention the part on me savouring the food. This is due to the fact that i am totally ashamed that the one month effort in losing the weight has gone down the drain! I think.. hmm i think.. i ate 1 kg worth of food for that day alone! Haha.. and it all goes down to the waistline... ketupat, lontong, kuih muih, and not to mention the multiple mixes of soft drinks.....sigh.. the list goes on. Bluwek
Enjoy the videos below. A touching moment..
Friday, October 12, 2007
My first visitor on the eve of Hari Raya!
Aishah looked really tired today. She just came back from her tuition. Her week must have been a tough one. Have plenty of rest over the weekend ya Sha! You need the beauty sleep.. otherwise we shall go for our retail theraphy soon.. hehe.. Afiq is always looking chirpy and energetic. As for him.. hmm .. what can i say.. except he is still the love of my life (my god.. Mel you are soo mushy!).. ;)
Both mums exchanged conversations. They have a lot in common. Besides the fact they look like Amoy(s).. Both are chinese looking..hehe..they have no interest in cooking! My mum was so proud to say that she now has a partner to share her lack of desire in the culinary skills. Haha.. sorry mum! Other than that, they get along quite well on the first meeting.
The short meeting ended with both parties exchanging food. My mum gave a bundle of ketupat and lepat while his mum gave her very own macaroon .. Its really yummy!!!!
We said our goodbyes.. and of course for me and him.. we sneaked a quick kiss on the lips. Thanks baby for introducing your family to mine. I love you loads! Take care in JB. Dan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri! Maaf zahir dan batin, dari ku kepada mu, Ikhlas dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki!. Semoga berbahagia disamping keluarga di hari lebaran ini.
P.S: I am still 1.65m tall.. hmmph!
Little India & Geylang combo Part II

So the story continues... Some of you may say that i can never get enough of Geylang.. Been there three times! Haha.. what the heck! I am only seen in geylang 3x a year! That doesn't seem a lot now does it.. hehe..
Ok... after Little India, Najib and I made our way to geylang serai. I managed to do my henna. Shucks...couldn't find the photos..i shall update this part once the pics are made available to me.
We buka at Banquet, and of course the dinner was accompanied by my wonder putu piting again! Hehe.. Bt other than that, the food at Banquet sucks big time! one store actually has a long list of food on the wall menu, BUT with a sticker on them that states "Not available". In the end, only 3 dishes are available for order. What the heck! What is the point of having a stall if you can only sell 3 types of dishes. I could cook more dishes than that! And yes, Me!! Sigh..
I had my nasi goreng sambal, while my brothers had carrot cake, kway teow goreng and deng deng. We were soo stuffed by the time we finished eating... and yes, i felt fat after the meal..
It is time for a little exercise after the dinner. Bazaar was again packed with people. We were sweating like pigs, having to squeeze our big bums in between people, while withstanding the odours and sticky bodies along the way. Yucks! Overall, we had a blast in geylang. My brother bought for himself a "sampin"-> I do not know what is called as in English.. ahah.. We ended the day at Barang Barang (at the spaceship looking building)! They have really nice furniture.. i would definitely get mine when i have a home of my own!
And in between.. we chilled at the good o'l Coffee Bean while waiting for my prince in shinning armor..
10pm: My dearest bf came to pick us up. Aww how sweet of him. Luf u baby! Thanks lots!
Below is the video that i have promised.. my henna..


















































